my world.my life. ♥

my story♥

2008-03-24T22:06:00.000+08:00

Hi, my name is: Christal Carmel Felisilda Dela Cruz

but you can call me: Chris, tal, tal-tal

Never in my life have I: killed a person. haha!

The one person who can drive me nuts is: my mum. grandma. my crazy tita. haha

My high school is: Ateneo de Zamboanga University

When I’m nervous: I bite my nails.

The last song I listened to was: I forgot. haha!

If I were to get married right now it would be to: BRAD PITT. haha! fantasies. ^_^

My hair is: short

When I was 4: i quit wearing diapers.

Last Christmas: i recieved gifts. ahaha.

I should be: ???

When I look down I see: my feet.

The happiest recent event was: joyriding with my friends.

If I were a character on ‘Friends’ : i would be rachel. haha.

By this time next year: i would be in cagayan. hopefully.

My current gripe is: huh? what's a gripe? LOL

I have a hard time understanding: geometry.

There’s these girls: ???

If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be: my mum.

I want to buy: a new artwork shirt.

Where do you plan to visit: Vatican City

If you spent the night at my house: you would be bored. haha.

The world could do without: copy cats. :))

Most recent thing I’ve bought myself: are some pastries. haha

Most recent thing someone else bought me: pansit satti thingy. hehe.

My middle name is: carmel. i know. its so religious. ugh.

In the morning I: eat b-fast. duh. hehe.

Last night I was: sleeping. duh. :DD

There’s this guy I know who: walk. haha

If I was an animal I’d be a: shark.

A better name for me would be: CHRISTAL. ^_^

Tomorrow I am: going to meet my cousin.

Tonight I am: going to sleep.

My birthday is on: July 27, 1992

a poem.. (kinda) LOL ♥

2008-03-21T13:24:00.003+08:00

its been a long time since i posted. LOL. i miss those days. :D
so, i wrote this poem on Feb 15, 2008. i was feeling kind of depressed cause my boyfriend broke up with me 2 days before. this poem is not for him though. *laughs* its for someone who i liked and still like right now. :) back then, for me, we weren't "okay" but thank God, we are now.

I'm sitting here, missing you

Wondering why I feel this way

Did you forget about me?

I thought we were friends.

I'm sitting here, thinking of the dream I had

It was so beautiful, I was with you

We were lovers there, happy

But when I woke up, it disappeared

I'm sitting here, missing you so

Wondering why you're not here

I'm sitting here crying,

wondering why I fell for you.

CURRENTLY PLAYING: Evidence by Urbandub

a walk to remember

2007-04-09T15:11:00.000+08:00

its been a long time since I updated my blog.. now, i'm updating it! lol.. effects of boredom I think.. *sigh* another thing I just did cause of boredom is watch dvds. I started watching this movie, "A Walk To Remember" again (i watched it like 4 times already). its based on the novel by Nicholas Sparks. the same author who wrote "The Notebook". cool right? but i hate him. why you ask? well, it's because, he's like the only author who can make me cry. yes, i cry... haha! its just, the way he writes is so good! (i can't explain it very much) and i hate him for that.. he's still one of my fave authors though. i recommend you guys to watch this. and if you watched it already, WATCH IT AGAIN!

my couz is here.... ♥

2007-03-18T19:21:00.000+08:00

my one and only cousin on the mother side is here.. they're gonna stay here for a week then i'm gonna go with them if they go home.. with my lola by the way.. and did i tell you she freaks me out? i dunno why. she's just so... i can even explain it! this is so going to be a very weird summer.. i dont even wanna go on a vacation right now! i wanna have a job so i can buy tees and more tees!

CURRENTLY PLAYING: Whoa by Paramore

the overnight.... ♥

2007-03-17T11:36:00.000+08:00

the overnight rocked! 2 hours of sleeping.. hahaha! here are some pics..

hanging out at the lobby

after the game

hanging out on the air bed..

girls sleeping. 4am

boys sleeping... 4am

....

2007-03-15T16:15:00.000+08:00

be back tomorrow... our class' first overnight! *claps*

CURRENTLY PLAYING: Fallen by 30 Seconds To Mars

Bizarre

2007-03-13T19:28:00.000+08:00

my song for him...
Every time i think of you
I get a shot right through into a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine but it's a problem i find
Living a life that i can't leave behind
There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
And every day my confusion grows
Every time i see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that i can't say
I feel fine and i feel good
I feel like i never should
Whenever i get this way, i just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if i hurt someone else
Then we'd never see just what we're meant to be
Every time i see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that i can't say

CURRENTLY PLAYING: Bizarre Love Triangle by Frente

bye shotgun..

2007-03-12T17:13:00.000+08:00

im letting go of shotgun.. i've moved on. i guess i can never have him. a friend told me that he's courting another girl. its my fault anyway. i shouldn't have expected much from him.. i blame myself. but i don't wish that this never happened because even though he's not the right guy for me (hell! im still young!), he made me realize that im not with the right guy(my ex). and he helped me move on and for a while, i was happy with him in my life. i've decided that i'm not gonna reply to his messages. di na ako magpaparamdam. i'm gonna forget about him (if i can...).

goodbye shotgun.

CURRENTLY PLAYING: Blue and Yellow by The Used

does absence really make the ♥ grow fonder?

2007-03-10T15:31:00.000+08:00

does absence really make the ♥ grow fonder? thats the question circling my mind. it does for me but does he think the same way?? *sigh* i really miss him..

handicraft #3

2007-03-10T15:29:00.000+08:00

this hadicraft was the most difficult to make. it takes a lot of patience and a lot of paper strips. but in the end, you will be happy with the results.

handicraft 1 & 2

2007-03-10T15:25:00.000+08:00

handicraft 1 and 2 were easy to do. the first handicraft, we made a picture frame from straw and old cardboard. the second one, we made a door chime out of old magazines. it was a pretty fun activity to do and it is also a fun way to recycle.

goodbye mah converse...

2007-03-03T16:46:00.000+08:00

i lost my converse yesterday, along with my pe gear.... i didn't realize it got lost not until today.. i miss it... lol..

pics from our outing!!

2007-03-02T19:31:00.000+08:00

I Caught Fire (In Your Eyes)

2007-03-01T20:49:00.000+08:00

Seemed to stop my breath
My head on your chest
Waiting to cave in
From the bottom of my...
Hear your voice again
Could we dim the sun
And wonder where we've been
Maybe you and me
So kiss me like you did
My heart stopped beating
Such a softer sin

(I'm melting, I'm melting)
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while

And I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me
Now

Never caught my breath
Every second I'm without you I'm a mess
Ever know each other
Trust these words are stones
why cuts aren't healing
Learning how to love

I'm melting (I'm melting)
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
And I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me
(Stay with me lay with me now)

You could stay and watch me fall
And of course I'll ask for help
Just stay with me now
We could take our heads off
stay in bed just make love that's all
Just stay with me now

I'm melting (I'm melting)
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
and I'm melting

In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
and I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me lay with me
(Stay with me, lay with me)

In your eyes
Let's sleep till the sun burns out
I'm melting in your eyes (I'm melting in your eyes)
Let's sleep till the sun burns out
I'm melting in your eyes

days.. ♥

2007-02-28T18:26:00.000+08:00

i f-ing deleted all of the tags in cbox! i am uber stupid! i really got sad when i accidentally deleted it. all those tags, gone, just like that! it was a pretty depressing night. i became nostalgic too.. and its because of him. yes him. my past. people ask me if i still love him, i give them a simple answer. yes... do you know why? well, he was my first ~~boyfriend~~ and he will always have a special place in my heart. he will always be my ~~wabu~~...

CURRENTLY PLAYING: My Heart by Paramore

mickey is love ♥

2007-02-27T19:14:00.001+08:00

mickey is the new sex people! he's like the combination of SHOTGUN and PIGGY. he's such a cutie!

CURRENTLY PLAYING: Swing Swing by The All American Rejects

edited pic... ♥

2007-02-25T21:42:00.000+08:00

i UBER love this edited pic!! credits to khadz aka. kamisa! thanks again!!

i Am So BoReD... sigh

2007-02-25T12:29:00.000+08:00

*screams* i am so uber bored right now.. got nothing to do. no one's online. all im doing right now is eating RAISINETS but not eating the raisins, i eat only the chocolate.... yes, i know... i am weird. last night, i watched the movie "Crash". it really touched me. its all about racism... its pretty dramatic and now i know why it got three academy award nominations.

CURRENTLY PLAYING: So Long Sweet Summer by Dashboard Confessionals

types of blogs.. ♥

2007-02-24T12:16:00.000+08:00

(note) this is just for our practical arts..

personal blog- its a kind of blog where you can put your thoughts and feelings, just like a diary.

political blog- a kind of blog that discusses about politics.

legal blog- a blog that discusses about law.

advice blog- a blog that gives advice to the online users.

news blog- a blog that provides up to date news.

spelling bee... ♥

2007-02-23T17:53:00.000+08:00

i am such a sore loser!! god! it should be lean who represented our section, but noooooo it was me! he just had to go to this stupid science camp! i should be the one attending that, if i wasn't absent.. for no reason at all *evil laugh*.. if i have a time machine, i would so change the things that happened a couple of weeks ago... tsk tsk tsk.. but its okay.. it happened already, i can't change it anymore. better luck next time.. (if there's gonna be a next time) *laughs*

CURRENTLY PLAYING: Can't Take It by The All American Rejects

just a silly misunderstanding... ♥

2007-02-22T17:32:00.000+08:00

3 PART POST

♥1st

*screams* it was all just a big MISUNDERSTANDING!!! he got disconnected so he didn't get to reply... and.... he DIDN'T read my blog post!!!! *claps* he texted me this morning asking if was mad at him.. *laughs* *screams* im uber happy.. and i think i should give HIM a codename.. hihihih.. hmmmm *thinks* SHOTGUN!!

♥2nd
i already told piggy to stop courting me.. *sigh* i feel so good about it.. i just cant imagine myself with him..

♥3rd
this is a FREE VERSE POEM i made during literature time..

there she is...
confused
crying
screaming

screaming

crying

CONFUSED..

yes!

there she is..

so unsure... ♥

2007-02-21T19:14:00.000+08:00

okay... im not sure what just happend today.

i can't believe that i did that. i agreed that he would court me... (note: he's not the guy who i wrote the letter for) i just cant believe that i said yes! my gosh... i dont even like him... he's just a crush. a crush i had for 3 years..

i don't know what im feeling right now. i cant explain it.. *screams* this day is uber weird!!!

codename for the guy: PIGGY

i guess i was wrong... ♥

2007-02-20T22:36:00.000+08:00

this is for you.... if your invi or you're really ofl.. i hope you read this..

i guess i was wrong to let you know how i feel... im not sure if you read my last post cause the counter didn't change but whatever..

i should not have told you to go to my blog. that was my mistake. just tell me if your mad or not. if you think i'm obsessed with you cause i wrote the post, IM NOT! i just want to let you know how i feel.. is that bad?

im worried right now.. i dont know if your mad. if your freaked out by me. or if you think im immature.

i know we don't know each other very well but it's not my fault i fell for you. its not my fault to have feelings for you. please! please! tell me how you feel! its better if you tell me you don't want me in your life than tell me nothing at all...

for him..♥

2007-02-19T17:39:00.000+08:00

i hope you read this... you know who you are..

it was on december 13, 2005 when i wrote in my old blog that you were cute. at that time you have a girlfriend and i dont exist in your perfect world...

february 3, 2007, a day before my boyfriend's (ex now) birthday. my friends and i were in the gradeschool waiting shed, tired from our outing. a common friend stopped by and sat with us. then you and your friends passed by. you looked at me and i looked at you. we both exchanged stares, looking into each other's eyes. i felt as if we were the only people there.when you were out of my sight, there i was... back to reality. our moment has ended.

a couple of minutes later, i looked at our common friend, wondering why he was laughing so hard, looking at his cellphone. he asked for my full name, "chrisal dela cruz" i said.. "why?". he told me that someone's asking for my number, i didn't expect it was YOU. i felt a sudden joy in my heart. butterflies in my stomach. a boost of energy..

we were at mcdonald's when you texted me. the feeling i felt earlier in the day came back. i cant believe im texting with one of the hottest guys in our university. we were once strangers but now we are friends.

it is now exactly 2 weeks since we "met". like i said, you were my crush back then, but now.... i dont know it seems like im falling for you. a crush, a little crush turned into something this big. when i broke up with my boyfriend, it didn't hurt. i guess it was because of you.

but why? why did you tell me i was your lil sis? i was shocked when you told me that... i guess i expected too much from you. i misread your signs. why did you have to be that sweet?! you showered me with your praise.. making me believe that you care... do you?

*sigh* im happy with the way things are right now. treat me as a lil sis? fine by me, but let me tell you this, i'm writing this letter to let you know my feelings for you and i just wanna say... I LIKE YOU.. you dont have to like be back, its enough for me that you know how i feel..

2007-02-18T18:16:00.000+08:00

a couple of minutes ago, i was uber depressed, just ask jemm (we both were). i was planning to tell this guy how i feel, but when he sent me a message, and we started to talk, its like i lost my courage to tell him my true feelings.. *sigh* i dont know.. i guess i'm happy with the way things are. the way our relationship is. but something is still bothering me. i dont know what it is and i cant explain it. why is love so complicated?

bad luck magnet... ♥

2007-02-17T18:02:00.000+08:00

1ST EVENT
we were going down the escalator at mindpro when my little pinky(right foot) hit the side thingy.. (haha!) i thought it was nothing but when i looked at it, it was like the nail was gonna come off! and then, blood was coming out.. lots of it.. i quickly ran to my grandpa's clinic and let him treat it.. thank God that it was only the skin and not the nail..

2ND EVENT
i was again going down, but his time, it was the stairs here in our house.. i went down and i almost sliped! *laughs*

3RD EVENT(the worst of the 2)
i cant tell you here cause its a KEPT SECRET between Jemm and I... haha!

i am uber stupid!! ♥

2007-02-16T21:14:00.000+08:00

attetion to all people who read my blog... i am stupid! its because of the so-called unlimited texting promo, which by the way is sooooooo expensive... heller?! 80=4 days??!! ugh! so anyways, i was supose to have the unlimited 40 for 2 days but i put unlitxtd30!!! *screams* thats the daylight unlimited thingy! i can only text 8am to 4:59pm... and did i tell you its for 2 WHOLE DAYS???!!! *cries* :( this ultimately sucks!

its VALENTINE'S Day! ♥

2007-02-14T08:16:00.000+08:00

joy! (sarcastic) its valentine's day... as usual, i dont have a date... but atleast im happy! *laughs*. things are great after the "BREAK UP". it didn't hurt as much as the last one. im finally free! haha! plus! being single is uber FAB!

my current theme song.... ♥

2007-02-12T13:07:00.001+08:00

Someday

Someday you'll gonna realize
One day you'll see through my eyes
But then i won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
Even if i can't

I know
You dont really see my worth
You think your the last guy on earth
Well i've got news for you
I know i'm not that strong
But it won't take long
Won't take long

Chorus

Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day i'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, someday

But now
I know you can't tell
I'm down,and i'm not down anyway
But one day these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry
Sweet goodbye

Chorus

Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day i'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, someday

its my life.. ♥

2007-02-06T17:58:00.000+08:00

♥im just a normal girl who has hopes and dreams. i wanna have 4 professions (lol).. lawyer, nurse, doctor and a veterinarian.
♥i love my family eventhough they're weird at times.. everyone has a weird family that freaks you out, right? (lolness).
♥ i was born here in zamboanga but after 4 years i moved to manila. then, after 6 years, i went back here!
♥i guess you can call me a CASUAL CHIC. i dont wear blouses, oversized belts, blah.blah.blah. chucks and tees are all i need!
♥ some people say im an ~~EMO~~ but im f-ing NOT! so back off!
♥ i call myself a MUSIC WHORE cause i just love music!! just look at my fave bands...
♥ i feel like im a numb person... just ask my close friends... i cry but not always... its like, when a disaster happens, i dont care about it... hahahaha!!

♥ i'm addicted to CHUCKS~~(still collecting, i only have 2 pairs)~~, ARTWORK TEES~~(again, im still starting to collect: 16 tees owned)~~ and WILLY WONKA CANDIES

† I HATE ~~HILARY DUFF, LIVER and POSERS!!~~

♥since i love music so much, im gonna share my favorite lines from my fave songs...

♥"I tried to be someone else.
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside.
Finally found myself.
Fighting for a chance.
I know now, this is who I really am."--the kill, 30 Seconds To Mars

♥ "Un-lonely nights, romantic moments. The love. What about them? Throw it all away. The perfect dates, the sweetest kisses. What about them?. Throw it all away!!"--when will you ever learn?, typecast

♥ and by the way, i'm an ONLY CHILD! hehe..